It Ends Soon(repost)

Reposted from my Facebook.


For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
--Jeremiah 29:11


...it ends soon...my college life, that is. Woah, after 5 years of being in college, all those quizzes, seatworks, exams, grades, pati na mga extra-curricular achuchu sa CEU...wow..Gragraduate na ako, at last. At kelangan lang no! 21 years old na ako!


first, I thank my mom and dad na sinuportahan nila ako all the way, sa 5 years kong college life, and I know how proud you are na matatapos na sa pag-aaral ang isa sa kambal nyo. Sorry kung palagi kami nagpapadeposit ng pera, magastos talaga sa Maynila.haha!Thank you din kasi kayo yung nagdecide for me to transfer to CEU. Kung hindi niyo ako nilipat, aba'y saan na kaya ako ngayon. haha! I love you ma at pa, thank you! :)
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Let me recall my first year at college- sa UPLB. I started as a BSCHEM. Kahit student number at bloc ko(syempre, hello X2! MISS KO NA KAYO...KENNETTE!lalo ka na!), naaalala ko pa. Mga prof, syempre, isa na si si sir Jojo noong Math17, na 3.0 lang grade ko.... Classmates, not so much(Hello, Rose Anne, Chano,Joy,Getlein, Rocky, Daniel,Kryzl,Che,Shyl,Christian,Myko,Kel,uhm oh em, wala na akong maalala ngayon.. ) Pati subjects na tinake ko, naalala ko pa. Pati yung iniyakan kong HIST1 na fininals ko, naalala ko pa! 
Pag inaalala ko yung UP life ko, iba..nakaka-miss din talaga maging UP student. Alam mong kahit isang taon lang ako doon, sobrang dami ding nangyari. Nawalan ako ng phone, bag, Chem17 lab manual, Math26 book..at syempre hindi ko makakalimutan yung exams ng Chem16 at 17 na gabi ang exam! UPLB life was great. Doon din ako naging marunong gumala sa gabi, magpuyat kaka-aral pero wala ding nakukuha sa exam, naalala ko sa isang lab exam, 19/100 lang ako D: tapos nagdissect ng frog at ipis, turo-turo din ng parts, yung tipong 2am na, hindi pa ako tapos mag-aral pero pasang-awa lang ang score. hahaha! Na minsan naging isa sa mga top scorer sa BIO2 lec exam, naalala ko pa nun, nakipagpustahan ako na kung andun pangalan ko, maglilibre ako, ayun naglibre nga! Pati qualitative analysis, naalala ko yun. Chem17 days. then Math26...na fininals ko din..naalala ko lahat, and I kinda miss being a UP student. Andito pa ang UPLB ID ko. actually, ito na lang yung natira, since nawala yung CEU ID at Pisay ID ko. :(


I find my UP academic experience really hard, that I cried when I couldn't understand anything about a lesson. Nafrufrustrate ako pag ganun, na sobrang sumasakit na yung ulo ko sa kakaisip pero walang lumalabas na sagot...it happened on Math26 and Math17, and even on CHEM17, lalo na sa HIST1. Ganun ako nahirapan, iniiyak ko pag hindi ko alam tapos wala akong ma-extract na sagot sa utak ko. I remember noong Bio2, noong practical lab exam, umiiyak ako kasi hirap na hirap na akong mag memorize ng parts ng frog at ipis tapos katabi kong matulog yung dalawang yun kasi kelangang alagaan muna bago sila idissect. Kinaya ko ang UP life ko ng isang taon. Paano na yung mga batchmates ko sa Pisay and my blocmates, friends na tinuloy nila yung pagiging isko/iska nila hanggang grumaduate? and to the other schools din? Hands down ako sa inyo. But I don't mean that I gave up my UP life because I wanted to, kung papipiliin ako, magsstay ako talaga sa UPLB noon. Good standing pa naman ako noon. Walang bagsak!


but one thing I really remember at UPLB...was Victory UPLB. I was reached out by Victory UPLB. I can still remember the group I was with. Hi Kuya Bryan, Hi Kuya Richard. I know that I found it a bit hard back then. Nahirapan akong mag-adjust noon. Na nagmeemeet pa tayo sa DL Umali steps for the group.... I never bought a Bible back then, and I didn't have any notes of any of the services I attended, though ilang beses akong umaattend ng services, now, I can't even remember any service I attended on Victory UPLB.. I didn't finish my 121 back then, and malamang, didn't have my Victory Weekend there. It was 2008. 


But my parents insisted to transfer me to CEU. Pharmacy.


Nalala ko pa yung dati kong blog na puro reklamo ang abot ko nung first year ko sa CEU. Haha! Grabe lang, binabasa ko actually yung mga entries na yun ngayon. Hahaha! Hindi ko akalain na yung mga shortcomings ng CEU, pinapalaki ko, nirereklamo ko, ayaw ko, ganun. Puro na lang reklamo ang ginagawa ko, hindi ko tinanggap...kasi, hindi ko naman talaga choice yung CEU na lipatan. Honestly, it was the LAST choice, wala na eh. Hindi ako tinanggap ng UPM at UST, so sa CEU na. Naalala ko pa yung entrance exam score ko, 94, and to think natatae ako nung nag-eexam! haha! kabado kasi ako sa spelling demons na nasa exam at sa trigo identities. 
Anyway, yung unang nagdevelop sa akin sa CEU, was my study habit. I really said to myself na dito sa CEU, I will study harder, and will focus on studies. Dito ako nakapag-aral nang mabuti, then maganda yung rewards-mataas na score at grade, pero it's not like the study habit na, puyatan, puro basa...Hindi ko alam pero minsan kasi hindi ko na binabasa ulit yung lesson kung alam kong nadaanan ko na yun, lalo na noong first year, hindi ko na inaral masyado yung Botany kasi nag-Bio na ako sa UPLB nun, so parang, paulit-ulit, nirecall ko na lang. Masaya yung first year ko kasi doon, mataas grades ko, kasi yung mga subjects ko noon, nadaanan na yung ibang lessons sa Pisay at sa UP. So it was an advantage.


Then came the majors.


Doon ako nagaral nang, let's say, na kelangan ng more effort. Pero hindi pa rin ako masyado nagpuyat, kasi hindi na ako nasanay magpuyat sa aral, kasi nag-aaral din ako sa school, pag vacant time..naalala ko lalo na nung first year, pag free time ko, pupunta talaga ako sa Library at mag-aaral, nadevelop ko yung ganung gawain, magreview pag free time, so hindi ko na kelangang magpuyat...pero nagpupuyat ako sa online games at internet. haha!.... AFAIK, ang pinagpuyatan ko lang dahil sa aral were two subjects..Pharmacology at  Pharmacy Seminar. Pero never akong inabot ng madaling araw. 2AM na siguro pinaka late ko. Pero dati sa UPLB, kahit mag-aral ako magdamag, wala pa din akong makukuha. haha!Ngayon, hirap akong mag-aral hanggang madaling araw, hindi na kaya ng sistema ko! Wala kasi akong study habit noon kaya siguro ako ganun. Thankful ako sa CEU at kahit papaano nagkaroon ako ng discipline sa pag-aaral. 
Dumaan ang 4 years ng pagtitiis sa CEU. Well hindi naman talaga TIIS yung tamang word. ENJOY would be the right word.
I enjoyed BS Pharmacy in CEU. It was fun. I enjoyed learning, and I learned a lot. Learning is the reason why we're on college. Not just about the course we take, but about life,reality, and learning about ourselves and others. Kaya nga nasa University tayo diba, para mag-aral, hindi gumawa ng kung ano-anong unnecessary things na hindi naman makakatulong sa pag-aaral. 


Thankful ako sa mga nakilala ko-classmates, friends, instructors...everybody. They made my CEU life meaningful. Thank you lalo na kina Adia at Ricca, na karamay ko na yan sa Kpop and all. Na halos hindi na kaming mahiwalay na tatlo. :) Kay Joy Labay, na kung hindi sa pangungulit mo kakainvite, nasaang lupalop na siguro ako. Ayun, thank you to everyone I knew at CEU. Marami akong natutunan. Though I may have my shortcomings. I know I have hurt people, said things to them, did things to them, and I want you to know I'm sorry, and let's forget those things.


One thing I really learned was, the school isn't the ONLY reason for a person's academic success. Sige, sabihin nating factor ang school, pero nasa estudyante din yun, kung mag-aaral siya nang mabuti. It's on the student on how he or she would utilize the resources, the time, to study well. Hindi naman puro 1.00 ang grades ko, but I can tell to myself that I learned a lot, and I know I studied well too. Ikaw rin, tayo, we did well, we studied well, diba? It's on how we do things to get us to success.


But success is nothing without God. It's not because of our own doing. It's because God wants us to succeed in doing what He wants us to do-doing the right things. 


One thing I will never forget is the last sem. 4th year, second sem.


I am a living testimony.


It was the second time Victory reached me out. Victory UBelt. Hindi talaga ako tinigilan ni God. Though late na kasi 4th year second sem, still, it was God's timing. I'm always thankful to God to realize a lot of things for just how many months, that He changed the way I think, I say, I do, and He's molding me to be the man He wants me to be! I can tell that I'm growing spiritually. 4th year, second sem is my best semester. My greatest semester, because I met great friends, real friends, true friends, and I met God again, and I'm walking with Him every day.  
These were all because of God's grace.and yet nakita ko ulit si Kuya Bryan, whom I thought I would have never seen again from Victory UPLB, nagkita kami dito sa Victory UBelt! :)  The people I met at church are the best people I've met. You know yourselves, guys, and how much you mean to me. Oo, ganito kayo kalupet sa buhay ko. Really, God blessed me with wonderful people. Hi Jal. :') 


Sorry, ang haba lang ng note na ito. haha.ayokong magdrama. Iyak na ako ng iyak lately. :) Because I'm always thankful, and God's love just overflows. :D


Always thankful.


Hello, college degree. Hello, T4V. 


Licensure Examinations? Bring it on.