Of Crying and Fireproof

I've had so many insights after watching Fireproof with Mark and Webster, to the point na pinag-iisipan ko buong gabi, at buong araw hanggang ngayon.

I am not fond of watching movies- the last one I watched in the theatre was Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 2, and maybe, the only movie that I'm eager watch is the Evangelion 1.0: You Are (Not) Alone and 2.0: You Can (Not) Advance, plus the other two more upcoming movies of EVA. So yeah, hindi ako interested on movies. 

Fireproof was a movie I didn't want to miss since ang dami ko nang narinig about it, especially from Lifebox people. I didn't even read a synopsis or watched a trailer of it para wala talaga akong idea about it. 

And then we watched the movie. 

Hindi pa nangangalahati yung movie, napaiyak na ako.

Noong akala kong patapos na yung movie, umiyak nanaman ako.

Noong last part na talaga, which is yung part na hindi ko inasahan, mas lalo akong humagulgol.

Grabe. Iyak much lang. haha. And to think the day before, which was the Friday youth service, humagulgol pa ako ng dalawang beses. Isa noong bago mag-7 pm service, at isa after. Crybaby, I am. 

But then I asked myself, bakit ang frequent kong umiyak. I know that in our society, it's not common for men to cry. Pero..hindi ba pwedeng, ganun magparamdam ng love si God sa akin? Noong Friday, I cried so hard, twice, because I repented, and after surrendering myself to God again, He said, 'You can always come back to Me, and I will be delighted if you do. Hold on to Me, to the Word. I love you, My child.'

 I cried on Friday because I realized I was wrong. I did something SO wrong. And I didn't keep it(my wrongdoing) to myself, I know what I should do-the RIGHT thing. And I realized too, that I hurt my leader, kasi noong nagkwento ako, tapos na, nangyari na eh. Dapat pala, noong alam kong I'm feeling uneasy, bago pa lumala, kinontak ko na siya, but I didn't, because I thought 'kaya ko na', but NO,kung wala si God sa isang bagay na pinagdesisyunan mo, it'll lead into a dangerous and maybe deadly situation. I tested myself.. And it made me cry more, kasi ayoko din na nakikitang nasasaktan siya dahil sa akin. Kung ganun na si Jal, paano na si Lord, diba. God was sad too, but He gave me a second chance. I cried so hard because I really wanted to repent. Ganun naging willing yung heart ko to surrender it to God. 

It was His love, His grace, add to that the love of the people who are with me in my walk with God, ganun kalaki yung natatanggap ko, and I know I don't deserve any of it, pero si God yun, at mahal Niya tayong lahat, and I just can't help to cry-a cry of gratitude, that always make me stronger, motivated, encouraged, and have the will to carry on to the next days. 

Regarding Fireproof, sobrang, wow. So many things learned from it. Dito lumalabas yung pagiging 'Learner' ko talaga. I'll just point some highlights of the ones that really struck me from the movie.

1. God should be at the center in a relationship. Not you, not your partner, not your career, not anyone else, not anything, but God. Everything else follows. Same applies to our individual lives, if we follow God, everything else follows.

2. Pride doesn't give you anything. It just causes problems. Boosting your own ego doesn't make you more of a person, doesn't make you better than the others. 

3. OPINIONS may help, but opinions are from a person's point of view-it may have holes and biases.

4. Seek godly counsel not from blabbermouths, not from the people full of pride, not from the world. Have a person- a person who follows God, that would help you in your problems. In him or her, seek godly counsel.

5. Have compassion for people. 

6. Never compare. Don't WEIGH your achievements, what you did, who did more, who did less. Remember that you're comparing yourself to another person, with a different life who has a different experience. It kinda goes with your pride when you're weighing and comparing.

7. READ the Bible everyday, and pray. Prayer really works. 

8. God is always with us, in times of need, in our good times, and stays in our bad, and worse, and worst times.

9. When you make a vow in marriage, NEVER break it. Kaya ako, I'll wait for the time when God will present to me my life partner; and 

10. You NEVER leave your partner-a friend, a significant other, in the fire, as God will never leave our side even if we're in the fire. It reminded me of the story of Shadrac, Meshac and Abednego.

Haha. ang dami lang no. :) sige, post ko na to. Hindi na ako nakareview kakaisip pa ng ittype :DD