Psalm 38

verse 6:
I am bowed down and brought very low.
verse 8:
I am feeble and utterly crushed; I groan anguish of heart.


Lately, I realized what it felt to have sinned and my heart was full of guilt that I even cried twice on the same evening. It was heavy, a burden I tried to bear but only had me crying and mourning because it was really hurting inside me. It felt so bad that I wanted to take that part off me. It felt like my whole self was crushed. It was really humbling, down, really down, to see myself as a sinner and someone who really deserves punishment from God...but God gave me a second chance. Repentance.

verse 9:
All my longings lie open before you, Lord.


God knows everything about us. Even those desires hidden within us, He knows it even though we don't say it. He knows what we want before we even tell Him. He knows what we need. He knows what's the best for us, so we should not close ourselves before God.

verse 12:
Those who want to kill me set their traps, those who would harm me talk of my ruin; all day long they scheme and lie.


I still can't figure out why there are people who still keep on bashing and bugging me with their words, judging me, saying bad things about me and like planning to ruin me buy gossip. I don't want to get my security from them. I won't mind their words and actions towards me. I get security from God.
There are people in our lives whose motives aren't really good and beneficial in our lives. Some just really tend to mess up with our plans and everyday activities, and some are just getting on your nerves because they don't like you and you don't know what you did. We really shouldn't mind those people since we should not take our security from them, we shouldn't please them, but please God.

verse 22.
Come quickly to help me, my Lord and my Savior. 

God is our refuge. He should be. Only in Him we can be secure in ALL things.