Trip to Victory Malate

I had my first church-hopping alone (well,not really alone since I was with one of my classmates when we were elementary) and I attended Victory Malate, which is near the place where I am staying. 

It felt so different from Victory UBelt, I felt it was my first time attending Victory. Haha! Anyway, the topic was about how can we tell if someone really follows Jesus.

The feeling of learning something new was awesome. It really felt like my first time to attend a Youth Service. John 13:33-35 was something I never thought would give an impact when I was listening to the preaching, and it was something I want to share to the mentoring group I will attend on Sunday. 

I got to meet UP Manila Lifebox (even their campus minister! sorry, I don't know much of the campus ministers in UBelt, I just know kuya Cy, our campus minister, haha), and again, it really felt like it was the first time I attended church because I was so shy! haha! but they were very nice and welcome, it was just I was too shy. LOL.

It was one of their members' birthdays,and she sang! Amazing! I feel so blessed today. 

Thank you to UP Manila Lifebox! I will definitely return on the next week! It was great and refreshing!

Lifebox UPM

 

I have been thinking of pursuing Medicine for my higher studies, and I think this would be the Medical school that I will enter. Praying for it. I'm not going to medicine until next year, after the license examinations for Pharmacy.

On Letting Go

I never thought that my leader would say that he thinks I should have another leader.

But then I realized why he told me that. he wanted me to grow with more mentors. i realized I have been only recognizing him as a sole mentor,that's why I have not been growing much as a Christian.

 Seek mentors,lots of them,that you may learn a lot from them and will help you in the walk with God.

I cried a lot when I thought of it,that I would be finding a new leader,but me and my leader right now are on different seasons,which means God has different plans for the both of us,and that means we have to be on separate ways.
Having realized that, I will pray for someone to be my new leader this season. I don't know what will happen to the bond we have with my would-be former leader but I think it's a bit severed. It needs to be restored first.

I had been responding to him in not-so-good ways,and that was the reason why he said I needed a new leader-because he is not being a person of encouragement to me and maybe he isn't the right person to encourage and help me this season. That's why he told me to get a new leader.

It's sad.

 I am on a social media break. No facebook and Twitter for a month until licensure exam results are out.

Birthday Messages for Two

Two special people celebrated their birthdays yesterday at the LifeBox Leaders' Camp in Caliraya. Sadly, I didn't come there. The Camp's schedule had a conflict with my pre-board exams. However, I did send them messages for their birthday, and even went up early as 6AM just to see them before they left for the camp.

Mark is one of those two people. He was the first person I met when I just started attending church. I was quite aloof and distant at first, but I eventually became close with him and now we're good friends. He's younger than me, but I don't mind, we're still brothers in Christ. He's very responsible and dependable, and he really steps up into leadership and loves the campus.

The other one who celebrated his birthday was Jalil. My leader. He's one of God's greatest gifts. My life wouldn't be like this if Jal didn't lead me to God. Jal was my witness. He helped me walk with God. He saw everything- from Day 1 of my attending at church until today. He's someone who saw how God moves in my life, and I will always be thankful to God that He placed Jal in my life.
He has the heart for discipleship, which is something I really want to develop too. It's a process,and how Jal treats the people he's connected to is inspiring.

Right now, those two are in the Leaders' Camp with the others. They'll be going back tomorrow, and it means one thing- a dinner with Jal tomorrow! We haven't talked for a month or two, so we should update each other. :)

And this was my message for the both of them. Happy Birthday!

I'm Staying

I lost some important things last Saturday, when I paid the internet bill.

I lost my wallet. The wallet had my bank card, alumni ID card, and some cash that should be used to pay for the electricity bill. I left it on the payment center when I paid the internet bill and just realized I didn't have the wallet when I was with a friend on the milk tea place. 

But you know, before, when I used to lose things, such as a phone, a bag, I cry so much. I cry because I know it was my fault and I couldn't bring it back. It was because of my carelessness and not being too aware of the place and the situation. I should have been more sensitive. 

What's different with what happened this Saturday was, I kept myself calm (but I was a bit uneasy) and collected, sent my parents the news, and even called my leader. I just thought of greater things- that I should be thankful because I didn't lose my life nor I was harmed- I just lost money and IDs, and that's just about it. I was concerned on how to bring my ATM card back and my alumni ID. Mom called and she said she'll take care of the ATM card, and today I just applied for a new alumni ID card, which would take three weeks to process.

If I have overheard it right, I heard someone in the review class saying 'sinumpa'(cursed). I had my earphones plugged so I couldn't hear it clearly, but I knew people were talking about what happened to me.

Well, to the person who said that, I don't know with you, but no matter how you curse me or say things behind my back or when I'm not aware, I don't mind. If I know that God is with me, who can stand against me? 

I looked on what happened to me on a positive note. God will provide. The wallet loss incident, I just thought of it as one of God's tests. A test of faith. I was reminded that God will provide EVERYTHING we need- provision, favor..anything we can ask for, we just need to obey Him, follow Him, love Him, and He will make everything good for us. God will provide! As said in Hebrews 11, He will never leave our side.

I really don't know what's wrong with people who say things behind my back and tell nasty things and curses and whatnots. I know where I stand, and that's with God. I don't mind them. I know where my security lies, but I still pray for God to move inside their hearts and make them realize what they're doing isn't right. They'll get it one day.

Anyway, this has been a productive day. I applied for a copy of my birth certificate and re-applied for my Alumni ID. All I'm waiting is the ATM card, and everything's fine again. 

It's a trial from God, and I'm choosing to stay in my walk with Him, no matter what the cost.

Accidentally Read Hebrews

I accidentally read the book of Hebrews when I was finished reading the book of James. I stumbled upon Hebrews 13, and some of the verses struck me. 




verse 7: Remember your leaders, who spoke the word of God to you. Consider the outcome of their way of life and imitate their faith.
verse 17: Have confidence in your leaders and submit to their authority, because they keep watch over you as those who must give an account. Do this so that their work will be a joy, not a burden, for that would be of no benefit to you.
verse 24: Greet all your leaders and all the Lord’s people. Those from Italy send you their greetings.



It's about having a good relationship with your leader, and to the people accountable to you. It reminded me of the person who lead me to God, and another person I was reminded was our campus minister. Our campus minister, kuya Cy, told us that we should be open to him and told us that he's just a SMS away. I'm really encouraged to share more to kuya Cy since my leader, Jalil, isn't around. I needed to surround myself with not just one person, but with a few more godly men who would give me godly counsel. Aside from Jal, Kuya Cy is one of those.

I was just reminded that I should be confident in sharing to these accountable people, as they keep watch over me through my walk with God. I shouldn't be hiding anything from them, it's hard to keep things to yourself knowing that God knows what you're hiding, so it's pretty useless to hide.
Have confidence in your leaders. Trust them, because they love you just as Christ loves everyone. Leaders don't bite. They don't judge, they don't condemn. They LISTEN, and godly counsel comes from them.

I'm single because...

I'm single because I want to know God better, and to grow more in my relationship with Him. I know I cannot lead and love a woman if I don't know how to follow God and love Him with all I am. So it's in His time, when I'm ready, He will bring her to me. Meanwhile, I'll focus on my season right now-knowing His will for me

God's Will

Since third year college, I have been helping people in their studies and did my best when trying to impart my knowledge to them. Sometimes I even worry that I may teach or say the wrong idea, but in times of correction, I admit my mistakes. I really think God is calling me to have a job that would make me impart my knowledge to people- and I really thought it was on TEACHING.

Recently, I told my parents regarding my desire to teach, but my father said he didn't like the idea that I would teach since both of my parents would want me to pursue higher studies (Clinical Pharmacy, Medicine). My mindset was shaken but still goes to the point that maybe, God is exposing to me what He REALLY wants me to do- not by imparting knowledge to students, but to patients and other healthcare professionals as a Pharmacist. 

I can't see clearly YET what my future will be, but I know God's will is good, pleasing and perfect, as long as I stand by Him.

Psalm 38

verse 6:
I am bowed down and brought very low.
verse 8:
I am feeble and utterly crushed; I groan anguish of heart.


Lately, I realized what it felt to have sinned and my heart was full of guilt that I even cried twice on the same evening. It was heavy, a burden I tried to bear but only had me crying and mourning because it was really hurting inside me. It felt so bad that I wanted to take that part off me. It felt like my whole self was crushed. It was really humbling, down, really down, to see myself as a sinner and someone who really deserves punishment from God...but God gave me a second chance. Repentance.

verse 9:
All my longings lie open before you, Lord.


God knows everything about us. Even those desires hidden within us, He knows it even though we don't say it. He knows what we want before we even tell Him. He knows what we need. He knows what's the best for us, so we should not close ourselves before God.

verse 12:
Those who want to kill me set their traps, those who would harm me talk of my ruin; all day long they scheme and lie.


I still can't figure out why there are people who still keep on bashing and bugging me with their words, judging me, saying bad things about me and like planning to ruin me buy gossip. I don't want to get my security from them. I won't mind their words and actions towards me. I get security from God.
There are people in our lives whose motives aren't really good and beneficial in our lives. Some just really tend to mess up with our plans and everyday activities, and some are just getting on your nerves because they don't like you and you don't know what you did. We really shouldn't mind those people since we should not take our security from them, we shouldn't please them, but please God.

verse 22.
Come quickly to help me, my Lord and my Savior. 

God is our refuge. He should be. Only in Him we can be secure in ALL things.

Of Crying and Fireproof

I've had so many insights after watching Fireproof with Mark and Webster, to the point na pinag-iisipan ko buong gabi, at buong araw hanggang ngayon.

I am not fond of watching movies- the last one I watched in the theatre was Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 2, and maybe, the only movie that I'm eager watch is the Evangelion 1.0: You Are (Not) Alone and 2.0: You Can (Not) Advance, plus the other two more upcoming movies of EVA. So yeah, hindi ako interested on movies. 

Fireproof was a movie I didn't want to miss since ang dami ko nang narinig about it, especially from Lifebox people. I didn't even read a synopsis or watched a trailer of it para wala talaga akong idea about it. 

And then we watched the movie. 

Hindi pa nangangalahati yung movie, napaiyak na ako.

Noong akala kong patapos na yung movie, umiyak nanaman ako.

Noong last part na talaga, which is yung part na hindi ko inasahan, mas lalo akong humagulgol.

Grabe. Iyak much lang. haha. And to think the day before, which was the Friday youth service, humagulgol pa ako ng dalawang beses. Isa noong bago mag-7 pm service, at isa after. Crybaby, I am. 

But then I asked myself, bakit ang frequent kong umiyak. I know that in our society, it's not common for men to cry. Pero..hindi ba pwedeng, ganun magparamdam ng love si God sa akin? Noong Friday, I cried so hard, twice, because I repented, and after surrendering myself to God again, He said, 'You can always come back to Me, and I will be delighted if you do. Hold on to Me, to the Word. I love you, My child.'

 I cried on Friday because I realized I was wrong. I did something SO wrong. And I didn't keep it(my wrongdoing) to myself, I know what I should do-the RIGHT thing. And I realized too, that I hurt my leader, kasi noong nagkwento ako, tapos na, nangyari na eh. Dapat pala, noong alam kong I'm feeling uneasy, bago pa lumala, kinontak ko na siya, but I didn't, because I thought 'kaya ko na', but NO,kung wala si God sa isang bagay na pinagdesisyunan mo, it'll lead into a dangerous and maybe deadly situation. I tested myself.. And it made me cry more, kasi ayoko din na nakikitang nasasaktan siya dahil sa akin. Kung ganun na si Jal, paano na si Lord, diba. God was sad too, but He gave me a second chance. I cried so hard because I really wanted to repent. Ganun naging willing yung heart ko to surrender it to God. 

It was His love, His grace, add to that the love of the people who are with me in my walk with God, ganun kalaki yung natatanggap ko, and I know I don't deserve any of it, pero si God yun, at mahal Niya tayong lahat, and I just can't help to cry-a cry of gratitude, that always make me stronger, motivated, encouraged, and have the will to carry on to the next days. 

Regarding Fireproof, sobrang, wow. So many things learned from it. Dito lumalabas yung pagiging 'Learner' ko talaga. I'll just point some highlights of the ones that really struck me from the movie.

1. God should be at the center in a relationship. Not you, not your partner, not your career, not anyone else, not anything, but God. Everything else follows. Same applies to our individual lives, if we follow God, everything else follows.

2. Pride doesn't give you anything. It just causes problems. Boosting your own ego doesn't make you more of a person, doesn't make you better than the others. 

3. OPINIONS may help, but opinions are from a person's point of view-it may have holes and biases.

4. Seek godly counsel not from blabbermouths, not from the people full of pride, not from the world. Have a person- a person who follows God, that would help you in your problems. In him or her, seek godly counsel.

5. Have compassion for people. 

6. Never compare. Don't WEIGH your achievements, what you did, who did more, who did less. Remember that you're comparing yourself to another person, with a different life who has a different experience. It kinda goes with your pride when you're weighing and comparing.

7. READ the Bible everyday, and pray. Prayer really works. 

8. God is always with us, in times of need, in our good times, and stays in our bad, and worse, and worst times.

9. When you make a vow in marriage, NEVER break it. Kaya ako, I'll wait for the time when God will present to me my life partner; and 

10. You NEVER leave your partner-a friend, a significant other, in the fire, as God will never leave our side even if we're in the fire. It reminded me of the story of Shadrac, Meshac and Abednego.

Haha. ang dami lang no. :) sige, post ko na to. Hindi na ako nakareview kakaisip pa ng ittype :DD

Floating inside a space vessel

I took a nap today, and I really think God was in my dream. 


Before I slept I was having a conversation with my leader regarding the struggle I had- it's really hard to control it, but God just gives me the strength to carry on.


I had this weird dream.
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We were a lot of people, at a place so quiet, like a desert. We were running from something- people were screaming, running, and tumbling. There were so many people that the ones who stumbled down, were always helped by the others to stand up and run.
As I look on the thing we're running from, it was...


a flood. Similar to the movie, 2012. It was a great flood that was chasing us, wanting to wipe us out. We ran so fast we managed to move into an area where the flood couldn't reach us.


We were resting, then somebody shouted "The water! It's here again!"


Then we just saw water gushing again to our direction. We ran again. 


 We were getting tired because we were running uphill, and I said on my mind, "What is going on here?Did God do this?Why, LORD, are you doing this to us?Are you letting us die on the flood, or something more? I'm getting tired, and I don't think I can run much further." 


A girl tripped over and couldn't get back up easily, so I managed to help her and run with her...then the flood was nearing to us. 


I thought, 'just don't look back.don't look at the flood.the LORD will save us.'


With eyes closed, I just didn't look back at the flood and continued to run, and a person in front of us shouted, "The water's gone!".


It wasn't really gone, it was like time got frozen and the water didn't move. 


What is going on here.


then in a split second, I was warped, teleported....to something really far....like a space station.


Then I found myself floating inside a space vessel, looking on the outer space..


Then somebody shouted.

"do you not have God in your life, who created all of heaven and earth, who showed you all of these?"

Yes, I have you,Lord. 


..and there was a part I couldn't remember. The voice went on saying something like this.


"don't give up on Me. I will always be with you. Have faith."

Then I woke up with a smiling face and an overwhelmed expression.

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I realized that God is always in our lives, no matter where you are, what you do, what were you, who you are, who you WERE. The past is the past, you can look into it, but don't let yourself get consumed by it. I think the water was an illustration of the past-the flood. It goes on to haunt you, get back to you, consume you again in your walk with God, but as long as you don't stop walking,running, and having FAITH in the LORD, you won't get consumed by it, you won't drown from it. You'll get splashed, but don't let yourself get into the water and be immersed into it. 
FAITH is the key. Believe in God. Believe in His wonders, His miracles. He will never leave us, and will always be with us. That's something I learned too.

..and I think that's God's message to me. It relates so much to the conversation I had with my leader, Jal this afternoon. I woke up with that realization, and I just felt so loved by God.

Visualize

A question I remembered during the Crossover event was:


How do you see yourself 5 years from now?


Honestly, I can't really answer the question. Before I went home, I already have the mindset of taking the licensure exams, passing it, and working in the academe as an instructor, and also serving in the church and campus ministry. 


And that mindset was shaken when I went home. 


My father is suggesting I should take further studies and pursue Clinical Pharmacy, which is the fifth year of the Pharmacy curriculum in CEU, or even continue until Doctor of Pharmacy, which is on the sixth year. 


My mind was so shaken I tried to think of it the whole day and weighing things, like "is going to the academe really not good?", "Well, I'll be able to practice my profession in the hospital setting if I pursue Clinical Pharmacy", and "but I already had the mindset of being an instructor!"
I also thought on the Chem company I tried to apply to during the jobs fair. It's more on the industrial side, so more on laboratory practice here. The company doesn't even need a licensed pharmacist, they accept graduates who even don't have the license.


I had those thoughts, those suggestions in my mind. My dad wants me to pursue Clinical Pharmacy or Doctor of Pharmacy. I want to pursue Masters' Degree or PhD and teach, and that industrial company is hanging on my thoughts.


I want this, I want that, is this good for me? Is this really what my family wants for me? Is it really for me? Is this what I really want in my life, to work as(insert choice here)?


but the RIGHT QUESTION is:


Where does God want me to go, amidst these choices?

As I contemplate about the decisions I will make, I really should pray to God for His guidance for me to take the right decision, where He really wants me to go, and that's how we should visualize our future- a future guided by God. The decisions we make today will affect our future, so we should not make hasty decisions. Think about it once, twice, thrice, a hundred times, with God's guidance.


As Jehoshaphat said on 2 Chronicles 18:4, "First seek the counsel of the LORD."

Crossing Over

It has been one semester of attending Victory U-Belt, and since I'm graduating, I attended the Crossover event which is a crossing over from being a student into a young professional. I wondered how the Victory Group I currently belong will go through, since I already got connected into a Victory Group for Singles. Thanks to Rodel(leftmost) for connecting me into your VG!


I'm concerned on the first VG I have, the VG I first grew with God. Jalil, my leader, has also graduated, and he was asking me what would we do if God told him to go to another place to work, or to focus on,  and leave U-Belt. I said that I will be willing to shoulder the leadership if God really tells him to, but I really think it would be better if he lets the other VG members grow maturely first before leaving, but yeah, it's still on God's decision.


Now I'm facing another chapter in my life- the transition from a student into a single, unemployed individual. Not that I'm complaining, but I will miss being part of the youth. 


When I think about the Crossover event, I thought that I wouldn't be crossing over if I didn't attend Victory, didn't have my 121 with Jalil, didn't  go on Victory Weekend, didn't have a VG, and didn't grow spiritually. I will always be grateful on how God used Jal to reach me out. I'm always thankful for those gulaman drinks, the Pixie meals, and those Moonleaf teas, and those times that he really tried to talk to me. It's by God's grace that my life changed so much and Jalil was the witness of it....well that's another story.

Back in being unemployed, I'm still in a dilemma on what to do after I hopefully pass the licensure exams. I really think God is calling me into the academe and serve Him by reaching out to the students, but dad is suggesting me to enter 5th year-Clinical Pharmacy. I would consider both, but it lies on what God really wants me to do and not on my own decision.


Going back to the province tonight. Might as well sleep early.

It Ends Soon(repost)

Reposted from my Facebook.


For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
--Jeremiah 29:11


...it ends soon...my college life, that is. Woah, after 5 years of being in college, all those quizzes, seatworks, exams, grades, pati na mga extra-curricular achuchu sa CEU...wow..Gragraduate na ako, at last. At kelangan lang no! 21 years old na ako!


first, I thank my mom and dad na sinuportahan nila ako all the way, sa 5 years kong college life, and I know how proud you are na matatapos na sa pag-aaral ang isa sa kambal nyo. Sorry kung palagi kami nagpapadeposit ng pera, magastos talaga sa Maynila.haha!Thank you din kasi kayo yung nagdecide for me to transfer to CEU. Kung hindi niyo ako nilipat, aba'y saan na kaya ako ngayon. haha! I love you ma at pa, thank you! :)
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Let me recall my first year at college- sa UPLB. I started as a BSCHEM. Kahit student number at bloc ko(syempre, hello X2! MISS KO NA KAYO...KENNETTE!lalo ka na!), naaalala ko pa. Mga prof, syempre, isa na si si sir Jojo noong Math17, na 3.0 lang grade ko.... Classmates, not so much(Hello, Rose Anne, Chano,Joy,Getlein, Rocky, Daniel,Kryzl,Che,Shyl,Christian,Myko,Kel,uhm oh em, wala na akong maalala ngayon.. ) Pati subjects na tinake ko, naalala ko pa. Pati yung iniyakan kong HIST1 na fininals ko, naalala ko pa! 
Pag inaalala ko yung UP life ko, iba..nakaka-miss din talaga maging UP student. Alam mong kahit isang taon lang ako doon, sobrang dami ding nangyari. Nawalan ako ng phone, bag, Chem17 lab manual, Math26 book..at syempre hindi ko makakalimutan yung exams ng Chem16 at 17 na gabi ang exam! UPLB life was great. Doon din ako naging marunong gumala sa gabi, magpuyat kaka-aral pero wala ding nakukuha sa exam, naalala ko sa isang lab exam, 19/100 lang ako D: tapos nagdissect ng frog at ipis, turo-turo din ng parts, yung tipong 2am na, hindi pa ako tapos mag-aral pero pasang-awa lang ang score. hahaha! Na minsan naging isa sa mga top scorer sa BIO2 lec exam, naalala ko pa nun, nakipagpustahan ako na kung andun pangalan ko, maglilibre ako, ayun naglibre nga! Pati qualitative analysis, naalala ko yun. Chem17 days. then Math26...na fininals ko din..naalala ko lahat, and I kinda miss being a UP student. Andito pa ang UPLB ID ko. actually, ito na lang yung natira, since nawala yung CEU ID at Pisay ID ko. :(


I find my UP academic experience really hard, that I cried when I couldn't understand anything about a lesson. Nafrufrustrate ako pag ganun, na sobrang sumasakit na yung ulo ko sa kakaisip pero walang lumalabas na sagot...it happened on Math26 and Math17, and even on CHEM17, lalo na sa HIST1. Ganun ako nahirapan, iniiyak ko pag hindi ko alam tapos wala akong ma-extract na sagot sa utak ko. I remember noong Bio2, noong practical lab exam, umiiyak ako kasi hirap na hirap na akong mag memorize ng parts ng frog at ipis tapos katabi kong matulog yung dalawang yun kasi kelangang alagaan muna bago sila idissect. Kinaya ko ang UP life ko ng isang taon. Paano na yung mga batchmates ko sa Pisay and my blocmates, friends na tinuloy nila yung pagiging isko/iska nila hanggang grumaduate? and to the other schools din? Hands down ako sa inyo. But I don't mean that I gave up my UP life because I wanted to, kung papipiliin ako, magsstay ako talaga sa UPLB noon. Good standing pa naman ako noon. Walang bagsak!


but one thing I really remember at UPLB...was Victory UPLB. I was reached out by Victory UPLB. I can still remember the group I was with. Hi Kuya Bryan, Hi Kuya Richard. I know that I found it a bit hard back then. Nahirapan akong mag-adjust noon. Na nagmeemeet pa tayo sa DL Umali steps for the group.... I never bought a Bible back then, and I didn't have any notes of any of the services I attended, though ilang beses akong umaattend ng services, now, I can't even remember any service I attended on Victory UPLB.. I didn't finish my 121 back then, and malamang, didn't have my Victory Weekend there. It was 2008. 


But my parents insisted to transfer me to CEU. Pharmacy.


Nalala ko pa yung dati kong blog na puro reklamo ang abot ko nung first year ko sa CEU. Haha! Grabe lang, binabasa ko actually yung mga entries na yun ngayon. Hahaha! Hindi ko akalain na yung mga shortcomings ng CEU, pinapalaki ko, nirereklamo ko, ayaw ko, ganun. Puro na lang reklamo ang ginagawa ko, hindi ko tinanggap...kasi, hindi ko naman talaga choice yung CEU na lipatan. Honestly, it was the LAST choice, wala na eh. Hindi ako tinanggap ng UPM at UST, so sa CEU na. Naalala ko pa yung entrance exam score ko, 94, and to think natatae ako nung nag-eexam! haha! kabado kasi ako sa spelling demons na nasa exam at sa trigo identities. 
Anyway, yung unang nagdevelop sa akin sa CEU, was my study habit. I really said to myself na dito sa CEU, I will study harder, and will focus on studies. Dito ako nakapag-aral nang mabuti, then maganda yung rewards-mataas na score at grade, pero it's not like the study habit na, puyatan, puro basa...Hindi ko alam pero minsan kasi hindi ko na binabasa ulit yung lesson kung alam kong nadaanan ko na yun, lalo na noong first year, hindi ko na inaral masyado yung Botany kasi nag-Bio na ako sa UPLB nun, so parang, paulit-ulit, nirecall ko na lang. Masaya yung first year ko kasi doon, mataas grades ko, kasi yung mga subjects ko noon, nadaanan na yung ibang lessons sa Pisay at sa UP. So it was an advantage.


Then came the majors.


Doon ako nagaral nang, let's say, na kelangan ng more effort. Pero hindi pa rin ako masyado nagpuyat, kasi hindi na ako nasanay magpuyat sa aral, kasi nag-aaral din ako sa school, pag vacant time..naalala ko lalo na nung first year, pag free time ko, pupunta talaga ako sa Library at mag-aaral, nadevelop ko yung ganung gawain, magreview pag free time, so hindi ko na kelangang magpuyat...pero nagpupuyat ako sa online games at internet. haha!.... AFAIK, ang pinagpuyatan ko lang dahil sa aral were two subjects..Pharmacology at  Pharmacy Seminar. Pero never akong inabot ng madaling araw. 2AM na siguro pinaka late ko. Pero dati sa UPLB, kahit mag-aral ako magdamag, wala pa din akong makukuha. haha!Ngayon, hirap akong mag-aral hanggang madaling araw, hindi na kaya ng sistema ko! Wala kasi akong study habit noon kaya siguro ako ganun. Thankful ako sa CEU at kahit papaano nagkaroon ako ng discipline sa pag-aaral. 
Dumaan ang 4 years ng pagtitiis sa CEU. Well hindi naman talaga TIIS yung tamang word. ENJOY would be the right word.
I enjoyed BS Pharmacy in CEU. It was fun. I enjoyed learning, and I learned a lot. Learning is the reason why we're on college. Not just about the course we take, but about life,reality, and learning about ourselves and others. Kaya nga nasa University tayo diba, para mag-aral, hindi gumawa ng kung ano-anong unnecessary things na hindi naman makakatulong sa pag-aaral. 


Thankful ako sa mga nakilala ko-classmates, friends, instructors...everybody. They made my CEU life meaningful. Thank you lalo na kina Adia at Ricca, na karamay ko na yan sa Kpop and all. Na halos hindi na kaming mahiwalay na tatlo. :) Kay Joy Labay, na kung hindi sa pangungulit mo kakainvite, nasaang lupalop na siguro ako. Ayun, thank you to everyone I knew at CEU. Marami akong natutunan. Though I may have my shortcomings. I know I have hurt people, said things to them, did things to them, and I want you to know I'm sorry, and let's forget those things.


One thing I really learned was, the school isn't the ONLY reason for a person's academic success. Sige, sabihin nating factor ang school, pero nasa estudyante din yun, kung mag-aaral siya nang mabuti. It's on the student on how he or she would utilize the resources, the time, to study well. Hindi naman puro 1.00 ang grades ko, but I can tell to myself that I learned a lot, and I know I studied well too. Ikaw rin, tayo, we did well, we studied well, diba? It's on how we do things to get us to success.


But success is nothing without God. It's not because of our own doing. It's because God wants us to succeed in doing what He wants us to do-doing the right things. 


One thing I will never forget is the last sem. 4th year, second sem.


I am a living testimony.


It was the second time Victory reached me out. Victory UBelt. Hindi talaga ako tinigilan ni God. Though late na kasi 4th year second sem, still, it was God's timing. I'm always thankful to God to realize a lot of things for just how many months, that He changed the way I think, I say, I do, and He's molding me to be the man He wants me to be! I can tell that I'm growing spiritually. 4th year, second sem is my best semester. My greatest semester, because I met great friends, real friends, true friends, and I met God again, and I'm walking with Him every day.  
These were all because of God's grace.and yet nakita ko ulit si Kuya Bryan, whom I thought I would have never seen again from Victory UPLB, nagkita kami dito sa Victory UBelt! :)  The people I met at church are the best people I've met. You know yourselves, guys, and how much you mean to me. Oo, ganito kayo kalupet sa buhay ko. Really, God blessed me with wonderful people. Hi Jal. :') 


Sorry, ang haba lang ng note na ito. haha.ayokong magdrama. Iyak na ako ng iyak lately. :) Because I'm always thankful, and God's love just overflows. :D


Always thankful.


Hello, college degree. Hello, T4V. 


Licensure Examinations? Bring it on.